Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

Yesterday, I went shopping.  It's the first time I allowed myself to shop for EK.  We had so many showers that I was afraid to buy anything, so finally... in the midst of all of my Christmas shopping, I decided that it was time for me to get to buy some things for her.  I came home with more than I should have, but of all the purchases, this one was my favorite...

Nothing special.  Just a tiny little pair of pink shoes from Dillards, but I'm in love nonetheless.  I can hardly believe that she's about to be here and will have those tiny little fit in these tiny little shoes.

I also bought the Medela postpartum support band, after hearing so many of my c-section friends comment on how helpful the postpartum bands are.  I had it on my list to finalize my shopping for the dreaded "hospital bag" that I still haven't started packing.  I'm only 35 weeks though.  I have plenty of time, right? ;)

Today, I am struggling.  I slept two hours last night... from 12-2, and I was up at least once during those two hours to pee, so it wasn't even a continuous two hours.  I am exhausted, but I truly find it impossible to get comfortable enough to sleep.  My doctor has completely ok'd taking Tylenol PM and even offered some sort of sleeping pill, but I can't do it.  I have taken one Tylenol PM once or twice and it helps so much, but I have immense guilt for drugging my child.

So today, I am at the office attempting to look like a hardcore lawyer in my jeans and my husband's shirt, with only half-opened eyes.  Fabulous!

But tomorrow... tomorrow is December 11, which is one month away from January 11, which is the day that we have discussed having the c-section to get my little angel here.  I am one month away from living a fairy tail... one month away from having my biggest dream come true... one month away from holding the love of my life.  How can it be so close and yet seem so many millions of miles away?

In other exciting news... I'm five days away from seeing my beautiful little girl at our next ultrasound, where they'll see how big she is now.  At our 30 weeks ultrasound, they anticipated a big ole' baby girl.  At 36 weeks, they want to see if she's still looking big.  If my belly is any indication, then I'm guessing YES.

Not sure if I've mentioned this already but my doctor will be out of town December 23 through January 3.  Um, unless EK's coming early (which terrifies me), then I really need her to stay put until my doctor gets back.  I'm not interested in getting to know any new doctors this late in the game.

And lastly... I FINALLY made a decision on a diaper bag.  I knew I wanted a Kalencom bag, made in my fabulous home state, but I couldn't decide on which design I liked.  Thanks to my wonderful husband for buying it for me.  He so knows the way to my heart... buy something baby related. ;)